My First Spring Break

When students plan for Spring Break, they think about having a good time probably getting drunk and partying until they cannot party anymore. But me, I spent my Spring Break learning valuable lessons.

Although I spent time with people I care about, most of them (family, not friends) irritated the crap out of me. But, after reflecting without being angry because of a dispute, I realized numerous things:

1. Although people may have your best interest at heart, they do not know what you need. Even though they think do.
2. You cannot ask something of someone when they are not knowledgeable of what you are asking for.
   
3. In the eyes of my parents, I am now an adult and therefore cannot seek their assistance.. whether for support or financially..

Basically, my spring break sucked. No, it didn't. I am lying. I actually had a good time. I spent time with my friends and very special people and went shopping, but it wasn't what most people would think spring break is supposed to be like. Maybe I should have went to Cancun. Sike.

Even though I was HIGHLY upset, I valued what was told to me. At the end of the day, I will be a much stronger individual. Due to the lack of assistance, I will also be better able to take care of myself because I have been on my own for so long.

Although I do not have my "parents," I do have many other people I can depend on. They are the people who keep me together making sure I am okay and alive - for that matter - Everyone needs someone and cannot obviously not make in this tough world alone. The hard part is figuring out who should be in the circle and who should be kicked out. Through this, I also learned what the true meaning of family is. For me, it sucks and even though it sucks, I am STILL so optimistic. I do not understand how or why, but I am glad I am. Family, no matter what - no matter what - is supposed to have your back. It hurts, well not so much any more - but it used to because I do the right thing, all the time. I have also come to find that people who (this may seem insensitive) do not deserve to have always have. I do not deserve to have my parents treat me the way they do. Especially when I have accomplished so much.

It amazes me how I still keep on smiling. I guess that's life.

TJ.